vulnerable

yes i know this song is a bit emo but its a good song.

saturday detention...

empty hallways

with only 4 hours of sleep i had to wake up to this!...saturday morning class.  i used to love saturday mornings, when i was a young boy i used to get up and watch all the best cartoons and shows. now its like wake up, go to school, nap, then go to school again, then dinner, then sleep and repeat it over and over (except for friday and sunday because i have no class) as i walk in the morning to my class i see that no one is in the hallways and there is nothing but pure silence. it felt like i was dreaming, nothing moving and no sound. it was until i got to class and saw my peers just sitting there in a daze ready to knock out and sleep. look what saturday has become. i used to look forward to saturday mornings but now i dread thinking of it. but on the bright side, i could finish school faster this way by taking an extra class.

black eyed fishy

petco

So i went to petco with my friend ann to take her pup chewy to get a haircut before her party. and i see this gangsta ass fish! it reminds me of "the game" in waist deep. gangsta ass fish that runs shit in that tank. busted up eye and all..or is it a tank house tat? well anyways this fish was looking like a straight G swimming around like he was the shit! big ass eyes. damn i should have bought this fish.

trapped in school..now what?

early morning...

being a college student is not what everyone needs, but is it really what i want? is it what i need? i am living paycheck to paycheck so to speak ... considering I don't even work haha but being a college student makes you even more broke: loans, gas, car, tuition, books, food and all that bullshit. i cant even have a decent breakfast anymore! for Pete's Sake .. (whoever Pete is) a gatorade for breakfast? .. (that guitar in the back isn't even mine! its my brother's sweet acoustic axe) speaking of guitar and music .. ill speak on that later. i know school can help with your knowledge and being smarter and higher salaries in the future .. but i would like to experience more than just money. someone once told me .. "money is the root of all evil" and another person told me "cash rules everything around me" so why would I want to be apart of evil and something that can rule me? .. why cant we just go back to the barter system?

everyday I walk through the hallways of school I always pass this dope ass painting, i believe its mickey mouse wanting to shake walt disney's hand. which is kind of cool because its like he is thanking him for making him a reality. the creation meets the creator. but it looks as if mr disney does not care much to shake his hand? one question that always gets me is, does art imitate life or does life imitate art? why think of these life long questions, i would like to quote Chuck from forgetting sarah marshall "if life gives you lemons you say fuck it and bail" 

i took this picture laying down on a couch at school wanting to sleep because i was tired of studying for 3 damn hours at the library! i couldn't even get a chance to download some stuff.

to me i think this is one of my most artistic pictures i have taken! the lighting is kind of cool.

but as i sat there laying in the school sofa I was listening to some sweet jams on my phone.  john mayer, jack johnson, jason mraz (3 J's), snow patrol, incubus and bow wow ft. t-pain (for some odd reason) as i waited for class i thought to myself, "DAMN i wish i could blow off school and just relearn the drums and advance in that shit!" so i could perform and have the feeling of playing in front of a live audience, something i have been wanting to do for the longest time. i dont care if the audience is just 5 people or 100 people.  i mean whenever my friends come over my brother and i usually jam and play these 2 songs that we know, but we are currently trying to get a nice little repertoire of songs under our belt to have a nice little set, for a just in case situation. i love grooving with my brother as he plays his guitar and as i just keep the beat going.  one of the most recent songs we've learned (it may be a bit simple but its tight when hiphop heads are there to try and freestyle to or just recite the lyrics) is cliche by typical cats. shits so tight! i wish if we do perform that song that someone just starts freestyling and a battle breaks out! AYO CHECK IT type of battle. my 2 cents is this

music>school

self expression>imitation

costume shopping..unsuccessful

ahh its that time of the year. last minute costume shopping at its finest! day of the day aka halloween is just around the corner and my brother, patrick and nerd head to belmont and clark to search for some vintage shit and some costumes

we 1st hit up ragstock, probably one of the most vintage of the vintage stores in chicago. i of course came out empty handed but pat and nerd got some dope vintage tees.
we then headed over to belmont army, brand new building with some brand new shit. they just opened their skate shop not too long ago and they carry some sick shit! the wall of skateboards is real sick but i was surprised to see that they carried in4mation shit. they had some dope shit
here is my brother, i believe he has to fly the f-22 raptor next week so he had to buy a jacket. can you believe this jacket is well over 650 bucks! i can only imagine what maverick and goose's jackets cost them.

they had a wall full of patches, some of em were tight but most of them were ehhh

shit load of pins for wannabe army men

after all that shopping and not buying anything we got home and rich was waiting for us so that we could clean our baby girls!
this is my girlfriend rianna..

draft night damn right

fantasy draft has finally come upon us!

sorry jimmy but you cant have kobe this year...

killing time with some halo action. since the weather is dipping low, i think its time for some indoor activities

nerf gun to good use. shooting random objects at the crib and even at peoples faces.
between each pick people would play connect 4..i suck!

so im in 2 different leagues and here is my team for each league.

make it a meijer night.

So pat, justin, jason and i are at home its about 130ish and we were so bored we decided to hit up a 24 store. we were all excited to go and see what they got! new blu-rays or some toys or maybe a board game and some food. 

Possibly the hugest pieces of gum one can put in there mouth. i mean come on now that shits bigger than an egg.

for all you NEWBS out there..please if you bring this to a sushi restaurant you deserve to get slapped.
i wonder how many people jigsaw killed to get these ribs...
so we were at meijer and for some reason justin wanted to buy a set of new cookware. i kind of wish he did because i feel like cooking up a storm in the kitchen. maybe some mac n cheese with a side of water
en-guard! jason found a piece of meat and started slaying down justin. 
if you were a halloween pumpkin pie face which would you be?.. since im not white i cant be him.
you lookin at my piece fitty cent?! haha all the way to meijer for a nerf gun!?! YES!
patron on ice. for some reason you had to ask the employees to get one for you in the back stock.
2 for 6 bucks! krunchers!
that is a big ass makers bottle. my enemy!
this is my cutty buddy fsho! haha i wonder what this tastes like. JB!
rockin that SHAKA!

mr mellow

music and emotion

it was just yesterday when my brother jason bought his new guitar at guitar center. i thought to myself, with all this time on my hands why not learn? so i ask him to teach me and of course my older brother is always more than willing to teach me some of his craft.

later that night after riding our motorcycles from aloha grill (bomb ass hawaiian food) we see nerd fixing up his fixed gear/single speed bike and my other brother justin forging a map in halo with pat. we get settled talk about life and what not. jason then brings his new acoustic out and starts playing some sweet licks and serenading to us (sort of). i see nerd doing a dance so the song lucky by jason mraz and colbie caillet. i dont think anybody should be dancing to that but nerd made it look amazing, like an interpretive dance of some sort. then my brother plays a song that i really really like, dashboard confessional - remember to breathe. i then ask him to teach me the ways of strumming. he then shows me the positioning of the fingers and the strumming of the strings. as i see him play it i try to remember how it goes. my 1st try wasnt too bad, just a little off, but i was feeling the song.

after a few tries i started the playing the song almost down to a tee. i close my eyes and feel the music take over my body. emotions releasing as i play each strum and switch to a different string on the guitar. i play the lyrics in my head as i play

"She fixes her lips they
Always look perfect
never a smudged line
never too much
I try on my blue shirt
she told me she liked it, once
she wonders what I'll wear
she knows just what she'll wear
she always wears blue
so, sneakers or flip flops?
I'm starting to panic
remember she asked you
remember to breathe
and everything will be okay"

and as i open my eyes i feel so free, i feel that i just said so much without saying a word.

thank you music
thank you jason

lebron is my idol

come on now lebron is biking to show everyone that it is good to exercise and to lose weight and get fit. i mean if lebron and dwade are doing it why not us?