music and emotion

it was just yesterday when my brother jason bought his new guitar at guitar center. i thought to myself, with all this time on my hands why not learn? so i ask him to teach me and of course my older brother is always more than willing to teach me some of his craft.

later that night after riding our motorcycles from aloha grill (bomb ass hawaiian food) we see nerd fixing up his fixed gear/single speed bike and my other brother justin forging a map in halo with pat. we get settled talk about life and what not. jason then brings his new acoustic out and starts playing some sweet licks and serenading to us (sort of). i see nerd doing a dance so the song lucky by jason mraz and colbie caillet. i dont think anybody should be dancing to that but nerd made it look amazing, like an interpretive dance of some sort. then my brother plays a song that i really really like, dashboard confessional - remember to breathe. i then ask him to teach me the ways of strumming. he then shows me the positioning of the fingers and the strumming of the strings. as i see him play it i try to remember how it goes. my 1st try wasnt too bad, just a little off, but i was feeling the song.

after a few tries i started the playing the song almost down to a tee. i close my eyes and feel the music take over my body. emotions releasing as i play each strum and switch to a different string on the guitar. i play the lyrics in my head as i play

"She fixes her lips they
Always look perfect
never a smudged line
never too much
I try on my blue shirt
she told me she liked it, once
she wonders what I'll wear
she knows just what she'll wear
she always wears blue
so, sneakers or flip flops?
I'm starting to panic
remember she asked you
remember to breathe
and everything will be okay"

and as i open my eyes i feel so free, i feel that i just said so much without saying a word.

thank you music
thank you jason